Healing by Becky A. Benson

Why would I pray for healing
when He makes no mistakes;

What if healing doesn’t match
our earth-side
temporary
physical ideals;

Should I cry out,
Scream
Let my temper
engage in a tantrum
of its own?

Or,
Should I submit
Not my will
but Thyne
Not my strength
but Yours.

What purpose
What reason
Can I bear it--
Pain--
but also beauty;
Stillness
A gentle calm
Peace in knowing
She will not return to me;
I will return to her
Reunited
in glory.

A promise
is a promise;
On this, I stand.
I cast my eyes heavenward.

This I know:
One day,
We will be healed
of pain and strife
of sickness and sorrow;
One day,
it will be so.

Becky A. Benson is the author of Three Short Years: Life Lessons in the Death of My Child, find her at beckyabenson.com. Her work has appeared on Salon, Modern Loss, Modern Mom, The Manifest Station, Brain, Child, Scary Mommy, Grief Narratives, and Months to Years Lit Mag.  She has written and spoken for the Center for Jewish Genetics in Chicago, and Soulumination in Seattle. 

In addition to her writing, Becky has recently hosted a webinar based on resiliency interviewing Sheryl Sandberg and been the guest on Once Upon A Gene Television.  She holds a degree in psychology and works for the National Tay-Sachs and Allied Diseases Association serving families of terminally ill children as the organization’s Conference and Family Services Coordinator. She lives in the Pacific Northwest with her family and beloved dachshund.

Her passion is for helping families endure the loss of a child, spreading awareness for genetic conditions, advocating for adoption, and providing a voice to the marginalized in society. These things, above all else, continue to intimately shape her writing.